the beginnings of 'my picture perfect imagination'

picture perfect.
is everything i've hoped for.

(what else can i hope for?)

at a loss for words;
...another time
...another day
a little less than a little vague.

another choice of red or blue -
despair.

you enter my mind,
and cut like a knife.
(left hung out to dry,
and twisting in the wind.)

battered and bruised.
disgustingly guilty.

your a lie that wont wash off,
i'm a stain that wont come clean,

(i wont come clean.)

yes there's blood on my hands,
and our lies they wont come clean,

(i wont come clean.)

you, the clinically proven relief.
for my manic,
for my pain.

you are my nights shadow,
my picture perfect shadow.

No. 16

picture perfect.
you are everything i've hoped for.
(what else can i hope for?)
at loss for words;
...another time
...another day
a little less than a little vague.
"where have you been
keeping these secrets from me.
i'm here a promise
guiding free
through the night i have seen."
you are a clinically proven relief
for my pain.
another choice of red or blue
despair.
you are my shadow,
my picture perfect shadow.

No. 15

this is for matt.
if you could see her now i know this is what you would think.


sitting here cold
quietly wishing
for a stolen glance
or to know what your thinking
a brush of your skin
a hint of a smile
another circumstance
and maybe i wouldnt be so shy

sitting here alone
feeling ridiculous
you wont notice me
so why am i thinking
of all the things we could be doing
and all the ways we'd do them
another chance or circumstance
but it would never happen

still i am sitting here
still i am waiting
i know the second time you came down
would be the last tonight
i tried my best to impress you
i tried to be witty
but clearly i had fallen short
and all i had left was goodnight